At 1:50am, I am physically drained, but mentally awake.

All these dark feelings return to my head, and I just can't seem to shake them.

Why has this all happened to me? I try my best with everything and everyone, yet it all seems to be thrown back in my face all the time. I am sick of being everyone's back up plan. When better things come along for them, be it friends or guys, I'm always dropped. It's like hey, who cares about my feelings right? I've picked up the pieces before, I can do it again. No problem. Except it is a problem.





I want this to go. I'm done feeling like this. I want to eat a meal without feeling sick. Sleep a good night's sleep without worrying about a million and one things. I want to get rid of this crushing feeling.

I don't however want to hear time is a healer. Yes it may be. But for now I don't have the time. I'm sick of this.