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My best friend nominated me to a 7 days of Gratitude challenge. These are mine for day 1. So here is goes...
1. I am grateful for my mom, and even though I come from a long line of strong Ludlow women, she is the one who I have seen the most strength from in my life. She raised me and my sister, by herself mostly, working 2 jobs to support us, making sure we had what we needed to get thru. She cou...ldn't afford materialistic things, but gave what she could, LOVE! She taught me to take care of myself and to do for me for nobody else was going to do it. When I was little she kisses my boo boo's, chased away the boogie man and took care of me when I was sick. As I got older, she stepped back only far enough to let me make my own decisions in life, but never so far away that she couldn't catch me, when I fell. When her daughter died and she was going her own turmoil and loss, she still was able to have strength enough to be there for me for I was going 2 losses at that time. I find that as my life grows I am more like her than I ever expected to be and I'm ok with that because who wouldn't want to grow up and be strong like her.
2. My sister Florence Perez RIP. My very 1st best friend. My sister had such a loving peace about her even as a child. The most beautiful smile, and she did that a lot. Her squeaky voice and her giggles were humorous. She was there from my 1st boyfriend to my last. I am sure my mother would say differently, but I really only remember have 1 fight with, it was over a bike, seems trivial now. lol. She and I being so close in age did most everything together, we had the same circle of friends and shared some common interests. I could go on and on about her but those of you who knew her know what kind of person she was. The morning I lost John Krizanic, my sister were a few of the 1st people to come and hold me up. She stopped everything she was doing or planning for that day to be with me. She was strong for me and helped me get thru a very hard time for me. She called and texted everyday to be sure I was hanging on. She would come over often to talk or even if it was just to hold me as I cried. When I got the phone call from a friend of my sisters tragic death, I was I such disbelief that I didn't even know how I was suppose to feel, I had him repeat it 5 times just to be sure I was hearing him correctly. At this time I was still mourning the loss of John (their deaths are 2 months apart) at first I totally lost it, but then gained strength to be able to tell my mom. I used what my sister had given me to be able to give it to those who needed it then. I miss my sister so very much and not a day goes by that I could just hear voice, hug her and tell her I love her.
3. Cassandra and Anthony, My Princesa and my Pa Chulo. 2 of the most amazing people to ever come into my life. The day you were born, what a My best friend nominated me to a 7 days of Gratitude challenge. These are mine for day 1. So here is goes...
1. I am grateful for my mom, and even though I come from a long line of strong Ludlow women, she is the one who I have seen the most strength from in my life. She raised me and my sister, by herself mostly, working 2 jobs to support us, making sure we had what we needed to get thru. She cou...ldn't afford materialistic things, but gave what she could, LOVE! She taught me to take care of myself and to do for me for nobody else was going to do it. When I was little she kisses my boo boo's, chased away the boogie man and took care of me when I was sick. As I got older, she stepped back only far enough to let me make my own decisions in life, but never so far away that she couldn't catch me, when I fell. When her daughter died and she was going her own turmoil and loss, she still was able to have strength enough to be there for me for I was going 2 losses at that time. I find that as my life grows I am more like her than I ever expected to be and I'm ok with that because who wouldn't want to grow up and be strong like her.
2. My sister Florence Perez RIP. My very 1st best friend. My sister had such a loving peace about her even as a child. The most beautiful smile, and she did that a lot. Her squeaky voice and her giggles were humorous. She was there from my 1st boyfriend to my last. I am sure my mother would say differently, but I really only remember have 1 fight with, it was over a bike, seems trivial now. lol. She and I being so close in age did most everything together, we had the same circle of friends and shared some common interests. I could go on and on about her but those of you who knew her know what kind of person she was. The morning I lost John Krizanic, my sister were a few of the 1st people to come and hold me up. She stopped everything she was doing or planning for that day to be with me. She was strong for me and helped me get thru a very hard time for me. She called and texted everyday to be sure I was hanging on. She would come over often to talk or even if it was just to hold me as I cried. When I got the phone call from a friend of my sisters tragic death, I was I such disbelief that I didn't even know how I was suppose to feel, I had him repeat it 5 times just to be sure I was hearing him correctly. At this time I was still mourning the loss of John (their deaths are 2 months apart) at first I totally lost it, but then gained strength to be able to tell my mom. I used what my sister had given me to be able to give it to those who needed it then. I miss my sister so very much and not a day goes by that I could just hear voice, hug her and tell her I love her.
3. Cassandra and Anthony, My Princesa and my Pa Chulo. 2 of the most amazing people to ever come into my life. The day you were born, what a glorious day that was, I couldn't wait t meet you both. You both fought a battle being so small, but made it through, who knew then that 2 tiny people cold have so much strength but you did. Its been such a pleasure to watch you both grow and mature. When your mom passed away, I wanted to be there for you, to be able to hug you and love you and let you know I was there for you. It was this time thru family healing, I saw the same strength then that you had as babies. I can't wait to see what your future holds for you an being able to be a part of it.
There you go day 1. I do no plan on sharing my next 6 days. But I will also continue to find a way to be grateful for at least one thing each day. During these last few months its been at times rough, but I'm doing it. Love what you have before life teaches you to love what you lost.
