Aren't relaltionships supposed to be a work of two? mine wasn't. I was so blind for eight months, only eight months. I'm not saying I regret my time with my loved one. No. Instead, I have learned, I've learned that putting myself first is a priority. My partner had no motivation in school, which is very important to me because everyday I worry about my future, even though I tried and tried to help him and motivate him to put effort in school he simply wouldn't. Yes, I got him to go to school but... attendance doesn't bring your grades up. I never wanted to make it seem as if he had to do it for me, no. I wanted him to do it for himself, I wanted nothing but the best for him.. Well, he basically got kicked out of school and is transferring to another, my parents don't like him at all.. I pushed my family away to be with him and now.. I'm trying to gain them back. Today, all the seniors went out to the football field and we took our senior pictures... that's when it hit me. He was supposed to be there right next to me... We are supposed to be talking about how excited we are to walk down to get a piece of paper that basically defines who you are in this country. It was honestly really sad for me, I wanted him there, I needed him there next to me.. I wanted my senior moments to be with him, I wanted to create memories with him, and now that's all gone. For a while now since school started I knew I needed to make a choice because I need something good in my life. Today, I decided that even though it hurts so much, I needed to let go of something that was so special to me, and that I loved with all my soul. It truly sucked. It took lots of courage to type something that I never thought I would.. Was there anyone to comfort me? no.. I just hope a pray nothing but the best for both, and I wish I told him that he was my first love I've ever had, my first, I wish he could see my pain so he would know that I care more than anything but it's good for both because not even our parents want us together, I wish him happiness, and of course wish that in the future we find ourselves back and this time make things right and at the right time. Goodbye my love...