Source: Artist: Me
And sometimes, “sometimes” becomes
constantly
Until I go through periods of feeling
badly
And shamefully
admit that
This probably isn't
healthy
Sometimes I hate being me
To the point that if I walk past my own
reflection
I glance above or below
To avert my eyes from the reflection of my
imperfections
To avoid the crush of my own
Rejection
Sometimes I hate being me
And I’m scared of admitting that too
loudly
For fear that people will
disagree
And tell me that I am
beautiful
And it will only make me feel pitiful
Or worse
guilty
Sometimes I hate that I hate being me
Because that
means
That I am ashamed of my own
genes
And of the traits passed
Down to me
And when I do speak
People repeat
The same thing they always
say
About how to turn my cheek
away
To disregard what others
say
because they can’t dictate
the way
that I feel
And that
I should be okay
I must confess
That in a world where beauty and
Success
Are basically
the same
Sometimes I hate being me
Sometimes you’d never know
That I hate being me
Because I so
Carefully
Hide it deep
underneath
Sometimes it’s like a little bruise
In the back of my heart
Not in my brain
The rational part of me understands
That this pain
Is something we all
Try to
Contain
Inside
Self-esteem isn't always easy
And it’s okay to have those days
Where everything seems
Grey
Just remember
that life won't always be that way
Sometimes you have to learn to be happy
And sometimes you have to find
The beauty
It won’t always be hard
Know that behind the clouds
The sky contains many stars
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