This is going to sound completely ridiculous and I’m sure some reading this (if anyone reads it at all), will think I’m totally pathetic.

So, I went to see one of my favourite bands ever a few weeks ago in concert. I paid for the VIP experience which included:
Question & Answers session with the band
An individual poster
Early entry in to the venue – which meant I was standing at the very front in touching distance of the band.

The whole thing was a little surreal if I’m honest. The picture of me with the band surprised me, you can see in my face, in my eyes I am genuinely happy in that moment and I don’t remember the last time before that picture that I felt genuinely happy.

So, for the totally ridiculous and pathetic bit…

The night of the concert I dreamt about one of the band members and ever since I have made up this whole other life in my head with said band member. I have a complete backstory of how I met them, why we’re friends etc. I spend most of my day daydreaming scenarios. Whilst I’m cooking up these encounters in my mind I find myself smiling or blushing (you can guess why, ha-ha).


Then it hit me I’m 32, single, living with my parents and no relationship I have will ever be as fun and exciting as the ones I make up in my head.

I totally understand a little daydream is healthy and a break from reality, but I’ve taken it to extremes and I know I should stop doing it. But I feel if I stop these escaping reality episodes I will literally be heartbroken!

I’m pathetic and stupid but had to get this in black and white.