I keep having dreams about my past lately. All this time I've tried so hard to repress these memories but they are coming back to light, all this guilt, sorrow and pain but the more I look into it, I realise that it wasn't my fault with my relationships going sour, also friendships and even career prospects. It was just unlucky but I've learned alot , which is how to avoid those types of people and also career wise has inspired me to just go for it and to never give up.

Whenever I fall I will just pick myself up. In the past I really did try to maintain my friendships but unfortunately they didn't want to know me anymore which is fair enough. I still feel a bit bitter because I've always wanted a friend for life. I feel angry for letting all these people making me feel worthless and depressed and in future I'm never going to let anyone make me feel that way again !