So it's one thing to be there for your friends, family and strangers,but what about when you need to talk but have an overwhelming feeling of guilt for burdening others with your problems. Some people even say 'here if you need to talk', or you know where I am if you need anything but in your mind you don't want to feel the guilt of letting others know you are struggling.

So here I am sat in my lovely quiet house going through the usual morning routine, wake up, go downstairs make breakfast, feed the animals, shower then do a 15 minute guided meditation, all is good then suddenly it hits you during these uncertain times 'covid19' I really should check on the people I value in my life and make sure they are ok. Although I would do this before covid19 I am realising now very few people actually check to see if I am ok.
Or is it that they do and I brush it aside with the usual 'I'm fine or i'm ok, to tell the truth I am ok... most of the time.

However this year has been very trying what with losing my father suddenly, suffering panic attacks, dealing with the funeral and having a spout of poor health, depression and anxiety which I have battled for years, I still make sure that everyone else is ok.

Trouble is when you feel like the you have to be strong for others, is it ok to admit you are not ok????

of course the answer to my question is yes but it is one thing telling yourself this and it is quite another following your advice.

Anyways time will tell my situation now is not my final destination this time next year I will be in a whole new situation, lets just take one day at a time.