You don't know what it means to miss you
The day I met you was the day the flowers in my lungs began to grow again. The color in my eyes began to show again,
and the night time goodbyes got me low again.
I miss the way your voice changes when you say stupid shit to your friends and the way the light hits your old bed, how it bends
Just like time which steals but mends
All through the rough patches,
surpassing all our deadens
if only we could just pretend
go to the beach and blend
Swim in the sea and amend,
rinse and repeat the sins that we'll spend
please let's pretend that we're more like them,
Functioning and thriving not diving into a shallow abyss,
it's a bitter sweet meandering bliss, I'm not asking for all of you just a long lasting kiss, so good it quietens the world into a gentle silent hiss.

You don't know how it feels to hurt for you,
You always leave me and the betrayal lies deep
Like a worm borrowing into bloody fleshy meat
Living only to survive and find its next feed
Just like all the other demons in me and i'm sorry my poetry cant be discrete...the decay of my soul could never be neat.
I've thought out all the reasons
Your name now triggers mazes in my skull
And just like the world has seasons
You and me keep swapping control
It's like a thirst that you feel deep in your chest
growing until it hurts and causes too much stress
and so my body bursts and causes a mess and I'm meant to reflect
but when I see myself all I think is what's left ?
And I never meant any disrespect
when I said you checked out from anything involving depth,
I didn't notice and that I regret, it was gradual like our love when we met.

You loose things in the same way you gain them,
a sick game of give and take and gain some,
we try to make it mean something but we're all numb
living separate lives under the same sun.
But I'm still grateful for the poems,
the fake love and the notes,
I'm wandering through all the ruins, the snakes come here to posse
I always see what people are doing just lack the strength to let go
but I could never start hating, it's human nature to grow
to be selfish and to crave control.
There's just one thing I've been dying to know,
If you had lived my life and I had lived yours.
Still met the same just entered through different doors.
If you had my flaws.
If I held your hands and stood in the light,
Went on a walk and talked through the night,
If I looked into your eyes told you it will all be alright
if you promise to trust me and ride
I'm here for you always but I need more time,
And for us it will mean a lot of sacrifice,
How would you reply?

Would you be able to make the compromise?
Even if all the voices in your mind were telling it's lies,
Escape all the previous goodbyes
Would you risk your own happiness and piece of mind
Would you ride?
That means never giving up our relationship no matter the fight
or how much it fucks with your mind


I don't think you would.


Am I right?