I remember the first time I cried on my birthday
The morning of 15th birthday
my parents sang to me and tears slid down my face
I felt an inexplicable sadness, even though I was surrounded
by family and friends.

Every year since then, my birthdays have held that same sadness – in varying degrees. It feels strange to think that I am now 24 when just yesterday I said I was 23. I thought I’d know more by this age, but I feel the same in most ways.

I wonder if that will every change?


I remember the last time I cried on my birthday
The morning of my 24th birthday
my grandparents sang to me and a smile crossed my face
I still felt an inexplicable sadness, even though I was congratulated
by family and friends

But it was still a good day.