I want to cry
BUT FOR SOME FUCKING REASON MY EYE WONT FUCKING DO IT!!
I have made a realization that I dont know how to properly cope.
(Like weed, drinking, porn. Not even video games help as much anymore)
AND DONT EVEN GET MY FUCKING STARTED ON MY FINANCES!!
Its been very hard lately. Job hunting is getting scarier by the day.
I want to cry
AND YA WANNA KNOW THE WORST PART OF THIS SHIT IS!?
Learning that this aching feeling in the palm of my hand,
(It's really the worst feeling)
Never goes away. It haunts me everytime I feel this pain in my heart.
I DONT WANT THIS FUCKING FEELING ANYMORE!!
I want to cry
BUT THAT AINT GONNA SOLVE SHIT!!
IMMA STILL BE BROKE
(Well kinda)
Emotionally unavailable
(Guys)
UNSATISFIED
(Wait)
Distant
(Stop that)
A LIAR
(Please)
A manipulator
(Please stop)
SOMEONE THAT WILL NEVER BE GREAT
(...)
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I just want to cry. But I can't.