Everyone is going to hurt you but I've finally learned to cut the cord of those toxic relations that don't contribute anything but headaches to ones life. Those things weighed too heavy. I should have done this sooner and though I have no regrets I don't know what took me so long to realize I was sleeping with the enemy. I kept letting the same people who hurt me in and out of my life consecutively. A part of me realizes I felt unworthy. I always thought the basis of love was someone who stayed by you no matter what. But there's more that goes hand in hand with that.
I want my relations to reflect joy. The type that's inevitable to smile though going through difficult times. I need to make love daily. I love to laugh until my eyes tear. I'm ready for that mushy love that has space in the priorities of ones personal life but melts to be around the significant other. Able to do many things together for the simple fact of enjoying each others company.
I haven't felt this good about being with someone. For the first time I'm not scared. I'm enjoying this bond we share. It's not even a sexual thing so the whole mental thing is blowing my mind.