I can't find any articles online so I'm going to post it on here instead. I've been dating from a young age of 14 and am now 21. I've been in 8 short term relationships and have been on plenty of dates. I've dated scrawny guys (really thin and small) to hot headed blokes to emotional needy guys. I can't seem to find the right one. I seem to attract disfunctional blokes who don't seem to understand me or understand that I am not always in the wrong! Then again, that's a typical bloke thing right? You know, 'I'm never wrong!' theory. I have tried online dating and meeting guys in a club. Neither ever works. I love bad boys. Every woman does. In the end though, if you hang around with a bad boy long enough you will see they are nothing of the sort. My ex was one of the bad boys. 'Mr toughy' I always called him. However, if you mentioned anything about his family he shut down and would refuse to speak about them. He is a twin and apparently the other brother got everything. It always confused me which brother was the bad seed because that other brother, he basically disowned him and removed him from his next of kin on his birth cert. If you asked me now how to date someone or how to get someones attention i could not honestly tell you how. I never knew how I got attention from others.

There is another story which I absolutely adore. I mean it's what got me like this in the first place. I had this huge crush on my neighbour. As geeky as I was back then I knew what a good looking guy was. What I didn't know was, they wouldn't feel the same way back. Anyway, we were all in a big group. I was the brains, and I'm not to sure what the rest were. I don't even know why I was with them. There were these two guys. Mr E and Mr C. I really liked them. Turns out years later Mr C felt the same way but never admitted it because he didn't want his friends to know he liked someone like me. But anyway, the two boys pretended Mr E liked me and played a trick on me. They got me to meet Mr E in a field that was open to everyone when it was dark and a little over my curfue. He walked over to me to kiss me then ran away with Mr C and started laughing. They acutally said 'haha we got her'. They called to my house the next day and asked me did I want to come out. Little did they think I would say no and closed the door in front of them. That showed them eh? My first ex dumped me through text. I mean how petty? My friend Mrs S constantly spread little white lies which to her were a genuine joke but really it hurt me bad. She would say that I had cameras hidden away in my room spying on my neighbour Mr E. Worst part of it all was Mrs S kissed Mr C. My second biggest crush. Another guy called Mr K asked me to kiss him when I was just 13. I was terrified so I just kissed him on both cheeks. He still denys it from this day asking me to kiss him. My friend Mrs J introduced me to chavs. She was queen Chav. i liked her. She was crazy, fun, and adventurous. You know, very little ever stopped her. My friend Mrs A introduced me to nerds. It's funny because we didn't get along at all. As nerdy as I was i didn't realize I had turned a new corner and didn' fit in with them at all. You could say, I was Mrs Js assistant in the chav world. These guys went from deal 'sweets' which I never took part of, to drinking alcohol 24.7 this I took part in. I knew almost every chav in town. Worst thing I have ever done is date a half traveller. It started as I stayed with Mrs J and her boyfriend Mrs D in Waterford, Ireland. This guy kept hitting on me but turns out he was a bit slow and didn't understand I didn' want him. So we pretended we were together and one thing lead to another and boom we dated. It lasted a whole three days. -- My nerdy friends abandoned me because I became the worst friend in history. I constantly rejected their invitations and constantly bragged about my knew friends to them. I only recently woke up in October 2013 and realized I wasn't any of them. I came from a good home but didn't receive any genuine love from my parents but always got guilt presents or guilt money. I convinced myself I had tonnes in common with the chavs.

(I love bad boys)- Personality shines through them as if they are something big in the social world. However, these boys have the most insecurities from home. Either the dad has been too hard on them or the mom just doesnt give a monkeys or is too selfish for her own good. Correct me if I'm wrong on any of this but this is just what I have seen in the last 7 years of my life. Emotional needy guys have been given everything by their parents. They have been given the freedom to do as they please and have been given what they asked for. The only thing they were never given is genuine love from their parents. Theyres a saying that if a parent doesnt love their child as much as they should they give them what they want to distract them. This messes up the childs psychological state of mind and does affect them when they become young adults. The minute their friend or partner says no they become so offended. They spend days trying to figure out what's wrong when really its their parents fault for emotionally abusing their children. All my friends are spoilled. I mean, a friend of mines parents are divorced. Her dad will not pay for anything for her unless shes does really well in college and I mean this can go for 100% attendance to getting 100% in a test. Whereas her mom, gives it to her when shes asks.