Some days,
I want
to die.

It feels easier than dealing with all of this.
It seems more logical than living my life like this.
Maybe instead of an end, I wish for a rewind.
Just once to turn back time.
I'm going crazy. And I want to be safe one day.
I want to be independent of my mistakes.
I want to live beyond the idiocy I've done throughout my life.
I want my stupid actions of the past to disintgrate, as though they never occured.
I want to wake up having forgotten.
I want it to be untrue.
I want to die.
Some days.