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For example my manager treats me differently to the others right from day one she has isolated me from the others and has divided the team up. There is alot of tension and negativity in my workplace at the moment. To start up with she has bought me lunch twice but none of the others.
She has rewarded me but never the others for their hard work , instead singles the others out and make it harder so this makes me an easy target to get bullied by the others which I find this hard to respond to them in a professional and appropriate manner.
On Wednesday two of my colleagues planned to go to this training session together and were given permission from other bosses but this manager is the main manager that has authority to say yes or no, well this manager took it personally that two colleagues told her last minute and so said no. One colleague shoulder barged me and then started crying hysterically. In that moment I felt helpless, I felt guilty but also wanted to comfort this colleague although they did the wrong thing shoulder barging me I forgave them because I can see where they are coming from.
In the end another manager had to argue with this main manager and eventually (Thank God!) the two colleagues were able to go.
When they were at this training the next day the other colleagues had a bitch fest over these two colleagues and even though it's a small department I tried to close my ears but the things they say and do to each other will forever haunt me because it makes me wonder what do they say about me when I'm not there.
When I'm angry at this manager for some things she has done I end up feeling guilty because she has confided in me that she is feeling suicidal and this has put me in an extremely difficult situation and now I feel like I can't tell her how I feel about the behaviour in the workplace so I'm still currently looking for another job.
This manager has mixed personal with professional and therefore will always be mixed signals and boundaries where she can always abuse and use people and make them feel like shit. I can't believe this is happening!
