As I mentioned before, writing has and will always be a great way for me to truly understand my thoughts and feelings. It is only about a week into my break up and I already genuinely feel much better. So i'm here to tell you that if you are in that dark place right now, that you will find a way out. After around 3 days I managed to stop crying and start planning. I planned out my day to day routine for when I go back for my second semester of university and have many new additions to my routine.

I've decided to try a daily Yoga routine for the second time in my life and hopefully i'll stick to it because it is something I need. I have also pencilled in some meditation and regular cardio exercise routines for an extra boost along with some reading time and of course time to dedicate to my studies. I am being catious that I do need to process my feelings instead of just using distraction, and as my living situation changes I am aware that remianing positive will be a tougher goal.

I have learnt a lot about positivity and self healing over the past week, I used to think that if I felt sad there was nothing I could do about it. I realise that sounds kind of ridiculous but I always just focussed on the psychological element and kept the mentality that this was how I felt because of hormones or illness, that there was no way I could change it. I was so wrong. Happiness is inside you, you just have to seek it out. So many people, including my ex, told me that I have to 'think positive' and it wasn't until now that I truly understand what that meant.

Please if you feel unhappy don't wait for it to pass, go out and search for a solution, I even googled ways to feel positive! I now have a whole page of notes full of links to various websites and articles I can access when I feel alone or depressed. Be proactive in your own happiness, I know when someone says that it seems as though they can't possibly understand but honestly just try and make small changes. Something that I read that truly helped me was asking two questions to myself 'Is there someone in this world worse off than me?' 'Will this matter in 5 years'. These questions are great when you're dealing with stressful situations.

So a week into my breakup and the biggest thing I have learnt on this journey of self discovery is simply how to be happy and how to promote happiness within myself.