Blogging has quickly become my addiction....


I woke up this morning, and for the slightest moment, I felt normal again....and then everything came back. Thud. The weight in my chest, the unexplained feelings, the thoughts in my head.


I looked at my blog page on my phone from my bed, views on my blogs have gone up overnight, and one has been shared twice. For some reason, this filled me with hope and strength. Now, I only started this yesterday, so if I'm completely honest... I have no idea what shared means.... but it means something. It was enough to get me up and out of bed.


So boiling the kettle I sat down and logged on to the computer. Got a coffee, and put on my music, and opened up a blank blog post. The feeling of letting all my emotions go, simply by pressing a few keys is amazing. It's crazy how I can write all this, feel elated at the fact it's being read by people I have never met, yet I can't tell people I know and trust just what it is that is going through my head. I think I have found my escapism. Awesome :)


Yet part of me worries that this is a pointless blog. But I guess if I get some form of relief out of it, then it has a point. I might not write the most interesting things... but it is helping, and for that I can only say thank you. Thanks to the creators, thanks to you who are reading this... even if it does bore you to death.


I cannot wait for the day I sit down to blog about a random thought I had about todays events, the current news, etcetc, and not about the pain I feel.... But I know this time is coming