What is wrong with me, I just cant help it, i guess .......

Here I am a 19 year old girl writing her thoughts out again ......

I cant help but think of him, i know he was just here for like two weeks working on a project for my dad, but he caught my attention .......

I know he wouldnt of even looked at me because he might of thought that iam just this teenage girl, way younger than him .......

I cant help but fall for guys older than me (by older i mean like 9 or 10 years older) ......

i dont know why but its always the case, i cant look at guys around my age as relationship partners ..... is that bad ? i feel like they are just so inmature ....... agh why, why, why?

But he is just sooo cute to not llike agh, why is love so complicated ??

I guess god does make wishes come true ...... after he finished his last job for my dad, he disappeared for some time, and now hes back!! I guess god does make wishes come true, i prayed to be able to see him again and it became true ......

hes going to be working on another project for my dad, but the thing is he wont be staying long

~ALover