Im sitting here asking myself the same question. Why am i doing this? Its Saturday i found out yesterday i was laid off from a job that i loved. I spent majority of my day yesterday crying and getting high so why do i feel like everything is going to be okay today? I dont know maybe its because i dont feel comfortable letting others know what im thinking. Sure i have friends that i can talk comfortably with but even they dont know the extinct of which my thoughts go. Ive always been the type of girl that has been nice , quiet , reserved and pretty much a person that has some type of energy that draws people in . Even if i wanted to be all alone i couldnt because someone would always be drawn to me. Maybe its the weed talking right now or maybe it the fact that as i write im sitting here listening to some music that has nothing to do with the way im feeling. Is there a songout there that can describe a feeling of empityness? (idk ifi spelled that right) Or is there a melody out there that can scream " I dont fucking know what im going todo now"? Fuck it! I will just put the music on suffle andlet the musical spirits guide me to the right song or whatever the fuck that means. If your reading this just know i look like a lady , curse like a sailor and i ran out of fucks to give.