So, I decided to start writing on a blog. What did I think it would achieve for me? Would it help me with my writing, help me reflect on myself? Maybe I feel like if I blog, then I can have a life like Jenna Hamilton. AWKWARD.

But, Why?
I felt like I already had a messed up, yet similar life just as she has, so why do I want to be like myself?
She seems more interesting.
Actually, I think I know why.
Maybe it’s because she has made so many mistakes, that I can see so very clearly, so I want to go back and make the right decisions for her.
She goes through guys like a 2 cent hooker, yet she was the ‘loser’ at school. pretty hard to believe.
If she was actually the loser, she would have never got any attention in the first place…

I’m tired, and am craving watching more episodes of AWKWARD. but, there’s none. I watched them all.

Is this my anxiety I get because I HATE when things end?
Maybe i’m mentioning anixiety because I want to mention my horrible boy history.
WOAH, okay, off topic.
Too much bullshet is on mymind right now, yet writing it down seems to make it a whole lot better.

Seeing my thoughts flow onto a web page, private, where no one would ever come read it was kind of comforting. I feel like I understand why Jenna went to blogging to express her feelings..
But wait, that would mean i’m like the ‘old’ jenna. the girl who was a no body..

I really want to be a somebody, I just don’t know how.