'"This too shall pass" is an adage indicating that all material conditions, positive or negative, are temporary.'

A couple days ago one of my best friends told me that this is one of her favourite quotes, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. I mean I already knew that everything we experienced has to finish at some point but I didn't know that there was such a straightfoward way of expressing it.

I also didn't know that I wasn't the only person who thought like this. I am a pessimist, always been like that. I'm scared of dying but I'm only fifteen years old and have hardly lived my life. I am aware that everything passes by, more than I really should be. Every conversation, every argument, every book or film. Everything finishes and I am so sensitive to this thought.

My watch ticks with every second that passes by and while this is a normal sound everyone is accustomed to, that tick is a mockery to me. It is the simple reminder that instead of having life changing experiences that shall pass, I am simply passing through days living an endless rountined life that I wish to break free from.

I don't know what to think. This is often the thought process I have when I think of this quote. I go through hundreds of thoughts and promises to myself, on how I will live my life to the fullest as soon as I can, but then I hit this spot. What am I doing? I am a mere fifteen years of age and yet I expect to be living life with no regrets. But how can I? When all I do is think, think instead of living.