I have this pain inside me and I've had it for years but it just keeps growing. I also feel trapped, like I can't escape. I try to please everyone and make sure everyone is happy instead of focusing on myself, but that's just the way I am, I am a big softy. I can't move on with my life. I'm 21 and I haven't lived yet because of things going around me. I feel like one day is going to be too late to live my life. I deal with things that I shouldn't have to deal wtih but I'm trapped because I can't say no, the thought of letting someone down puts me down. I literally have no social life, no one I can talk to. I have an amazing partner but now that he is so insecure, I'm too scared to do something that may affect him even though, I know I'm fine. I feel like I'm having to choose between things in life and I just can't do it. I feel like I'm never going to move forward with my life. I've pretty much been upset most of my life, just some days are better than others. So many things on my mind, I feel trapped. Why can't I move on.