Goodmorning world! What am I even doing here first thing on a Saturday morning? The truth is I really do not know! I'm guessing that my mind has the sudden impulse of wanting to go to the toilet ultimately relieving itself of dead thoughts! How crude! I feel tired and exhausted. It was impossible to sleep last night due to the heat and this was despite having all my windows open. I suppose the mating call of foxes thoughout the night kept me alert and wondering. I had nothing to stare at other than the ceiling above!

So, I am here and as I focus on my computer screen I am slowly delving into a Terry's chocolate orange, slice by slice and each slice feels like smooth velvet on my tastebuds. I hardly ever have chocolate on a Saturday morning but I suppose getting into a tiny bit of chocolate therapy never hurt anyone except my waist line by a milimetre or two!

Life is just a big old crazy accident don't you think? Well, my life is in any case. I feel like a lost soul! I do not know which road to travel. Should I go left? Should I go right? Does the road straight ahead lead to unrealised pleasure? I can only continue to wonder as the demons of fear and non action continue to plague me as they have always done!

I think I am dying slowly inside, this has been the case for many years! "Your life is what you make it!" I have heard this quote time and time again and I suppose this is true. I only woke up grabbing my Terry's chocolate orange and all of a sudden there's this indepth stuff! Where is it all coming from?

There are two things in my life that mean the world to me and they are both reading and writing, a whole lot of reading with not a whole lot of writing except in private journals or diaries if you like! I suppose this morning I thought I would try and release the unneeded crap from within the deepest confines of my brain!

So, what is positive about this particular Saturday morning? Well, at least there's some blue sky that I can see with a few fluffy clouds here and there! I am actually three quarters of the way through my Terrys chocolate orange and my fear is that by the time I reach the end I will have run out of words; I guess the chocolate is helping me to concentrate and get creative!

No one would label me as such, at least not the nice people of this world, but I would label myself as the "Social Outcast!" People are a mystery to me! I am not crazy and I have not traversed the realms of insanity, not yet anyway! The only escape I have is this platform where I can write something and obviously my books and constant reading.

Life goes on doesn't it? No one really cares about you. Everyone is out there in the big wide world doing their own thing and rightly so. Perhaps I should challenge myself from time to time and just get out there and do stuff! Saturday morning, my books, my writing, tv time, a bit of chocolate, perhaps a nice drive to the coast come tomorrow ultimately, this is what my weekend boils down to! Have a nice weekend!