It kind of comes on slowly, then out of nowhere you are having a bad day every day. When was the last day you didn’t have a down period during the day? When was the last day you didn’t break out in tears?

It’s weird that, how things happen gradually then all at once consume you. I’m not sure if I’m ok.

Grey skies cloud my head; they make me so fatigued and lifeless. Everything requires double the amount of energy that I have and so I do not have enough to give. Doing one thing a day is enough, and then I crumble. No surplus energy but maxed out, just by doing so very, very little.

I try drink the herbal tea that says is for tiredness and fatigue but I know it’s no miracle cure. I buy vitamins although I know I have no clue what I’m lacking, and I tell myself I will get an early night but my mind plays up and keeps me awake. No wonder I’m exhausted when my brain won’t let my emotions give me a rest.

I have so many things to do, “adult” things to do, and the weight of them is pushing me further down into my own clouded mind. My own clouded mind, which has its own clouded view, that apparently only I can see. The sun is out, so I’m told…so why is the sky above me so grey?