I started a new position at work. I was nervous enough as it is because I had some big shoes to fill! The girl that was training me was just so amazing at it! She was so organized that when she began to train me, it was as if it was just too good to be true! I dont think I've ever been trained so well at a company.
Anyway, there are people that at first made silly jokes telling me things like, "it's better to dance with the devil you know, than the one you dont". Ok, so it was funny at first. But when they continuously do it over and over again, it can get a bit overbearing. I mean, these are people that I thought would only want the best for me! They would never wish me the opposite! Right?? Or would they?? When the jokes continue, it then begins to place a negative thought at a time in your mind. And then you begin to wonder if they are really saying it because they miss you or is it because they are upset that you moved on?? And they were well aware that a bump in my pay was included. How should I feel about this? And what sucks is that I dont know how to communicate these things without sounding harsh! So it's so tough for me. So I rather keep shut than to create enemies at my place of work. And it's not like I left the company or even the area I have been in! I am still at the same place, just a new position with better pay.
Maybe this is part of what triggered the nightmare I had. Besides a few other things that have been weighing on my mind. Hmmm...