Yes, like the kylie song, I can't get him out my head, but I'm playing it "cool" I'm not texting him loads, I'm not asking who he's with and when ect, I wouldn't wanna know that anyway, he's out this weekend, and as sad and pathetic as it sounds I want him to drunken text or even call me, as then I would know he was thinking about me, I know I said to him I can do the friends with benefits kinda thing, and yes I am up for it because I figured it can only go two ways, One things develop into a relationship and Two things dont develeop and I leave for the summer and move citys in septemeber so I can easily move on, and will have made a friend forever someone i feel so comfortable around... However in the meantime I want him still, I want him to call, I want to know he is thinking about me. Its a "lads" night out, and as sad as it is I couldn't help but look at who the lads where he's going out with, yet they dont seem to look like lads that go out on the "pull" which lies in my favor I guess....
Anyway I am looking forward to what the furture holds, and I am definity not going to come across needy, Im gonna try text someone else if I feel the desire, and Im not gonna stop haveing a good time on nights out with my friends, but I am gonna look as good as i can, incase he sees the photos and if he dose atleast i look good anyway...

He's a marine, he has that connection with me, I get that when he left for 3wks he found it hard to say goodbye, and I will be here for every goodbye after that, but to me its never goodbye, its only a see you later, because he's always comeing home, hes never gone forever, I just hope he realises I can handle that he's away, because my dad is away with the army, So i want him to notice I am always gonna be here for him from start to finish, weather its as a friend or as a girlfriend.. Im gonna be here, stood by his side, because I wont ever be able to walk away completely from him...